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Wednesday, February 25, 2015

It's Been Awhile

Seems that Google changes had locked me out of this for some time.  I have cleaned up some old posts and hope to have more posted in the near future.  If not hear than perhaps a new location.  Stay tuned.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

My Story in a Nut Shell

I know I had stated I would post more on Predictive Programming.  However, I have received numerous questions regarding how I came to see what I have stated.  I do not feel I can share that without giving a brief insight to my background.  Take the following for what it is worth.  I stand beside it and will not waver from the testimony below.

WHERE LIFE BEGAN FOR ME
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Late 1999- 2000 I had attended a large men's conference that had gained much momentum at that time called Promise Keepers of which I am sure you are familiar. It was during such an event that I had become convicted of my sin of lust. From that point (being truly convicted) I began to pray in earnest continually to be freed from this spirit that was ruining my family because of my sin. Having be raised in a non-denominasional church the way in which the Lord answered my prayer was unsettling and unexpected to say the least.

I was getting ready for bed (and because of my sin) I was sleeping alone on the couch with my wife in bed by herself. I had turned off everything except for the bathroom light in the hallway, which we kept on as a nightlight. As I was falling asleep I became increasingly aware of a presence of fear that grew exponentially. I feel that the words “overwhelming terror” does not even accurately describe what I was feeling. Along with this was the sensation of being forced into the couch as if something were pushing/holding me down. I began to pray like I had never prayed before. With my eyes closed I asked Jesus to take this away. It only intensified and it didn't seem possible that it could. I don't know how long this took place, but at one point I became aware that there was a presence in the room. The same sensation you have when you realize someone is looking at you in a crowd without actually seeing the person who is looking. I knew exactly where to look for this presence even though my eyes had been closed the entire time. I turned over and looked up and saw the following. This is the only description that I can come up with. What I saw was a completely dark shadow where a shadow could not have possibly been. The bathroom light should have made everything in that room visible to me. However the shadow (completely black) is best described as the silouette of Darth Vador from star wars minues the detail of the actual person. Just the outline. Without thinking I told that “thing” to leave in the name of Jesus three times before it moved and went “through” the front doorway. Needless to say I didn't fall asleep except for 15 and 20 minute intervals the rest of that night. That day was spent by me wondering if I had just hallucinated the whole thing. That idea was quickly erased the next night.

The next night, in bed with my wife this time, I again was just about to fall asleep. Our bathroom light with the door to the bathroom mostly closed, acting as our nightlight. And again the feeling of absolute terror began to overcome me as I was laying there. I pinched my eyes shut not wanting to see what I knew was there in my room. Repeat me praying in earnest under my breath to make this “thing” go away. I had not gotten very far in this when my wife sat straight up and grabbed my arm and stated “Chad, there's someone in our room!” The terror in her voice matching the terror I felt in my own heart. I quickly repeated the previous night's sequence of commanding that thing to leave in Jesus name verbally out loud. As I completed the third time saying this the thing again began to leave the room towards the door. As it left the room, my daughter who was still just an infant at 9 months old, let out a blood-curdling scream as only a baby could. We of course quickly ran to comfort her.

The Lord had my attention to say the least. The truth of the scriptures testimony and witness was become for me a reality of the truth for the very first time in my “christian” life. That day began a response in me that was not planned, it simply was. I was broken. I could not eat or think about anything else for what became a ten day time-frame. During this time I was stripped spiritually of all I thought I knew. A war was being waged against me spiritually against the Word of God internally. It was as if I was a spectator in my own heart and mind. The arguments of the world were attacking the truth of what I professed to believe. The result of this ten day spiritual battle was that there became one verse of scripture, and only one, that cast down every argument and accusation against my soal was this verse - John 10:28 And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. This verse and this verse alone began winning every word that came against me in my heart. I had been stripped of everything. This verse alone God revealed to me was the only truth in scripture that was of a truth faith in me despite my years of attending church and teaching. But, from this one scripture the Lord began building of a truth all His word in me and adding to it as a building would be constructed from the foundation.

I began sharing this experience with any who would listen. So much was my zeal at my new-found reality that I quickly began to stir up my church family. To my great surprise it was not the non-believers that were rejecting my testimony, but the very members of my own church family and life-long friends. So much so that I received a visit from the minister of my church at my house questioning me on my testimony. The Lord had filled me with His Holy Spirit and I was preaching repentance in the power of God. This was causing trouble.

It was a little while into this pattern of rejection before the Lord Himself visited me in a dream. I had never experienced this for myself before and it has been permanantly etched into the fabric of who I am. There is always more to a personal testimony than can be shared in brief here at what the Lord performed during the last 13yrs of my life since that time, but I wish to share three dreams that The Lord has given me since that time.

- I will let the Lord interpret for the reader and will not explain them myself -

  1. My dream started with me in my vehicle driving to work on the same route I drove every day. When I looked to my left I saw not the buildings that should have been there, but a vast desert. As I looked to the right of this desert I saw a vast storm such as I had never seen before. I stretched from the top of the heavens to the earth and it's expanse reached from the left to the right as far as the eye could see. I instantly knew that this storm covered the entire earth and nothing would escape it's path. I immediately stopped my jeep and took three steps into the desert. But, before I could walk any further I saw at the back of this desert a unicorn running towards me so quickly that a dust cloud was left behind Him and He reached me before I could take a fourth step. It took no words, but I had immediate understanding that this was indeed The Lord and that He had been searching in this desert for His children. (for those who think this is fantasy I suggest they search for the term “unicorn” in their KJV Bibles and see that this is indeed the Lord in figure). Without words, but pure thought I knew that The Lord was letting me know that anything I asked of Him I could have and He would give it to me. Again, without consciously thinking the response came forth from me “I want to heal!” The Lord then looked at me like I had never been looked at before. With that one look from head to toe I knew that the Lord could see me as nobody else ever could. My past, my present and my future. All of it laid bare before Him. He nodded at me and stepped forward. Again, without needing any words, I knew that I was to lay my hand upon His horn to receive my request. He then retreated back a step and nodded to me and quickly left to where He came from. I was so excited (still in my dream) that I went and started telling everyone I knew to be sick what had just happened and that if they only asked to be healed that I could lay my hands on them and they would be healed immediately. Many were healed until I reached one person I knew that resisted. I kept persisting and the more I tried the more I was resisted until this person ran from me and eventually ran to a place I could not follow. When that happened I went to my own house and told my wife what had happened. Up until this point in the dream I understood everything that was happening. However, the response of my wife confused me. She answered me by telling me to go and buy the biggest and most expensive jar of perfume I could buy and so I did. When I returned she asked me to come with her to the family room with a bowel and so I did. When I arrived she began to take off her socks and shoes and asked me to place the bowel at her feet and pour the perfume into the bowel. When I asked her why I was doing this she responded “The time is near and the time has come for I must wash my feet of this world because my heels are sore.” End of the dream. I woke up

  1. Three days later I had another dream in which I was in what should have been a purely white kitchen. Everything was covered in filth from top to bottom. As I looked there was a horrible man who had a baby in filthy rags held in one hand. He was (with contempt) using the rags that covered the baby as a wash cloth to wipe the kitchen down. The child was being destroyed because of the violence with which he used it and was creating more filth with the destruction that the purpose of cleansing the dirt away. When I realized what was happening I immediately overcame this terrible man and stripped the child away from him and chased him off. When I had done so I looked down at the baby who was unconscience and bleeding from the abuse. I was utterly heart-broken. The dream ended

Both of these dreams were immediately after my visitation experience. This last dream occurred during the summer of this year 2012.

  1. This dream was very short, but left me panting when I awoke. I looked and saw this man who appeared to me as though dressed in proper business clothing, to me was a bum. He held a bottle in his hand covered with a brown paper bag that was obviously alcohol. He asked me if I had tried this new stuff that everyone was talking about. Stating that this “spirit” was an ancient spirit that had been just recently rediscovered. I told him “no”. He said you have to try it! Before I could respond he quickly took a huge swig into his mouth and then just as quickly pressed his mouth to mine and vomitted this spirit out of his belly directly into my mouth by grabbing the back of my head and pressing his mouth to mine. I was repulsed and infuriated by this and quickly vomitted back at of my mouth onto the ground what he had done. Dream ended as I woke up from sleep.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Girdwood Goes Alone - By J. Randall Stewart

And all the people did was clap.

They did not move, they did not go; they will not.

They have not died. They do not want that. That is a little too extreme. That is for the few, the extra special, the Mother Teresa's and Zecheriahs.

We're not really called to lay down our lives. That's not for us. We just give God a little, just enough to keep the blessings flowing. To hold our reservation in Heaven. We've got a life to live and happiness to pursue, after all. God can't expect us to give up everything for Him.

So why don't you go, Girdwood.

You can go, and we'll just stay here and give our ten-percent to help you pay the way. You go Girdwood, not us. But thanks anyway for the offer. Thanks for the sermon, thanks for warming our hearts a little and making us feel good for a moment. Thanks a lot.

And all the people did was clap.
And all the angels wondered why.
With all the lost still dying lost,
and all the Lord could do was cry.

Monday, April 2, 2012

SOLD OUT!


WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR - What are you waiting for? What event in life do you need to finally convince you that the way you are living your life is not worth it? So frustrated day in and day out. Lack. Lack is the one word that defines your existance. Never enough. The day leaves you exhausted. You come home and distract yourself with entertainment. You 'Live for the weekend'. Unsatisfied. When will you believe that Christ died for you and not just the minister and the preacher. We have all suffered greatly because all who have heard Christ have not followed Him. Did you not understand that if you heard His voice and accepted Him than it was to you whom He called to a life from that point forward in service to Him?


SACRIFICE – I know. In the past it seemed too much. You have a family and friends and a routine. Where has that got you? I can tell you; it has left you unsatisfied, wretched in your hearts, deperessed, dependant on medication to provide for a “chemical imbalance”.

WHY ARE YOU OUT OF BALANCE TO BEGIN WITH -  Is it not because you are living in a rebellion against the call of Christ on your life? Did you not think there was a blessing for you in following Jesus that is more than what you can hold in your hand? You tell me. You have your home. You have your big-screen t.v. You have the furniture. But, is it bringing you peace? How's your relationship with your spouse? Children? Family? I can tell you. You don't have to lie to me. It's written all over you. What do I mean? There's no power in your testimony. Those around you are not shaking at the power of Christ in your life. Nobody speaks of you. Let me tell you something. Those who are on The Path of following Jesus are dividers! What do I mean? I mean this. They are either sought after or despised! People love them or hate them. Of those who are fully committed to following Jesus leave noone a choice to “not have an opinion.”

IT'S MY FAULT - I know this because I was (am) one of those people who ignored the call for far to long. Let me tell you where that led me: Bondage, Debt, Division with my spouse, rebellion of my children. Should I go on? Of course not! You already know it for yourself! It's my fault and my sin, but no more!

I'M SELLING OUT FOR CHRIST AND I'M TAKING MY FAMILY WITH ME - I'm tired of that old life. I'm tired of ignoring Christ's claim on my life. I'm not ignoring it anymore. I'm following Him. I'm selling out. Goodbye house and mortgage I can't afford. Goodbye material possesions that have no purpose for God. Goodbye curses; bring on the blessing! Yes, and I am taking my rightful place as the leader of my family. I am taking the wife given to me and I am leading her and my family to Jesus. To following after Him and experiencing the joy and peace that come from following Him and Him alone!

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN - I don't know, but for the first time since I have been saved and filled with His Holy Spirit I'm excited again! I know there will be trouble, but not without His Peace. He gives peace not as the world gives! THANK GOD FOR THAT! I'm done with this world folks. It's a curse. It's a trap and a lie. This world holds nothing for me anymore. I see where it leads. As for me and my house we will serve the Lord.

WHAT'S STOPPING YOU FROM GOING WITH ME - But, how will my family survive? How will they be provided for? That's what is in your heart, but you don't say it out loud when asked. We come up with all sorts of reasons to feed our delusions like “Someone has to support the missionaries.” Yup, I agree. I thought that was Jesus job though? What you are really saying is “I don't have faith to believe that Christ meant that for me.” When in fact He did. If you heard His call then He meant it just for you. “Follow me.” That's what He said. “I will make you fishers of men.” That's what He said. “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” That's what He said.

YES THERE WILL BE TROUBLE – Yes, there will be trouble. Yes there will be times of unknown immediate answers to your need, but won't it be so good to know that you are living by faith and not by sight? That you will have the greatest peace there is in knowing that you are one with Him! Hand in hand with Him? Give that life to me! I want it and I want it now! I want it today! Give me Jesus and nothing else!

JUST GET OUT OF MY WAY – For those of you who would say “Calm down Chad. Let's think this through.” Really? You want me to think this through. Okay, I've spent the last twenty years thinking this through. Give it a rest! Save your words. I've “sat” and “thought” long enough. Give me Jesus. He is my portion!

COME WITH ME - Don't sit there. Come with me. Make yourselves dependent on Him. Cast yourselves at His feet and I guarantee you will learn about prayer!

HAVE I GOT YOU STIRRED UP NOW - I sure hope so. This country (USA) has fallen by the way side because to many of us, Christ's Church, have not understood that we were to be wholey and soley for Him and Him alone.

Pick up your cross and follow me...

Monday, March 26, 2012

Three Nails for a Clean Heart


Our natural tendency is to shy away from prayer. We already dread the time we will spend there before we ever start. Even those who are given to spend more time in prayer than perhaps some others will even feel it in their own flesh as well. Resistance. You know why. The weakness of the flesh. The sinfulness of the flesh. The guilt of our own hearts condemning us. If we would just understand that it is just what prayer is for that the answer for these and much more would be found with our heads and hearts bowed before God.


Why does this happen? - We know for ourselves that prayer is a sacrifice in many ways outwardly. It is a sacrifice of time and we know instinctively it is a sacrifice of our own wills. We don't even truly consider that the sacrifice of these two things alone our worth it. Sadly, we never have truly experienced what it has meant to lay hold of God. Prayer is a sacrifice. That's why this happens. We are told in Romans 12:1 that we should present ourselves “holy and pleasing to God.” Before we can be presented we have to be examined. When Yahweh gave the commands for the sacrifice He did it with order. There was an order to be followed. Principal of this order is that the sacrificial lamb was to be “unblemished”. The high priest was to examine the sheep for errors. Simply put, if there was anything wrong with the sheep then it was rejected and could not be offered as a sacrifice.

So that's what's happening - YES! If you have accepted Jesus as your saviour then you have been given the gift of the Holy Spirit. Our Lord's Spirit will do everything to keep us in a right standing with God. Do everything to keep us in His favor! Do everything to keep us UNBLEMISHED! The Holy Spirit will prompt us all day long to stay in God's ways. Will direct us according to our thoughts. Warn us of danger. Show us how we are to proceed. If we, by faith, follow and obey His guidance then we maintain a clean conscience. We, the living sacrifice, are examined. Your heart will be examined for truth. Whatever the truth is then it must be confessed and exposed.

The crucified life - For most, sadly, they only see confession as a sad ordeal that has always led to the same place; back to where they are now. Nowhere. No more power in life than what they have always had. Listen to the Lord's story. Have you not seen in God's Word? YOU HAVEN'T EVEN PRAYED YET! I don't care how long you have been a Christian. I don't care how long you have attended church. If you have never understood this then you have NEVER pressed in. Listen to what I am telling you. You haven't even begun! Don't let this be a condemnation, but a sign of hope! That which I had thought of as prayer and never received answer for wasn't even prayer! That which you have always called prayer was just the beginning! You have never made it before God's throne where the blessings of prayer and the offerings of our heart can be offered! To that place where you can come away from with a full assurance YOU HAVE WHAT YOU ASKED FOR! But, what if the confession of your heart is that of the crucified life? What if you can with boldness, instead of a confession of sin, let your confession be that of a clean conscience? That you can believe God and have your heart be examined and that through faith (believing God's word and work) that you have been made clean. Confess your sins. Accept God's grace. And THEN press on to the throne of God!

Before the Throne - Now you can pray. Now you can plead your case before our Lord! It is here that we can present ourselves and God's promises to before the throne. We come before the King of Kings and present His Words, the Law, and we confess them before the Lord AND DO NOT GIVE UP until we have a full assurance in our hearts that we have received our request!

Are you with me now? - Can you see now what your sin is and has been? Can you hear your heart tell you now what your true nature has been? That sin of unbelief. Unbelief is the cause of our loss. It is why we continue to lose with God in prayer. Again and again we have hung our heads in shame and walked away without the blessing we came for. The shame of walking away from the throne empty-handed has happened more times then we can count. Nobody has ever told you that today, even today, you could have walked away with a fullness of faith. Walked away from the throne of God with a full assurance. That you could have heard His decree; His promise to you and your blessing. That you could have seen in your life God's working and manifesting of His power! God's Word cannot fail! God's promises cannot come back empty! A fullness and boldness of faith is required. A fullness and boldness that does not shy away. Have you not read that the one who doubts can expect nothing? Do not let this be you forever! Do not go away again empty-handed! Come with me and kneel before God and confess your sins. Read in God's word how He has cleansed you of your sin by His death on the cross. And that even now, by his own blood, is interceding on your behalf and washing you clean!

Brothers and sisters, you have not even begun to pray! But praise God! We will! Yes! Yes! We will!!